A year...

It has been a year this month since I carved the word "rejected" on my leg...

How the feelings of the heart have changed...

There has been healing...

I remember back to that pain and it is hard to imagine walking with the depth of pain I was walking with a year ago...

Everyday, multiple times a day, I still see that scar...and it reminds me of that pain...but it is nice to be reminded instead of feeling it...

I haven't cut in over 6 weeks...huge progress for me...

and yet my heart has been stuggling...it has been so numb...my panic attacks have increased...my heart feels lonely...it feels sad...it misses alot of things...it just feels really sad...

But I am glad I am making progress...I am moving forward...I am getting stronger...